4 posts from 2008

I have to start my integration paper for my last class as a college student and possibly my last class ever, which feels pretty weird to say.  I have no clue how to start, what to put in it; plus it must be twenty something pages long-which isn't enough actually- and I will be tested on what I put later during my senior orals.  I will be asked any questions at all about the philosophical assummptions and how they pertain to-oh my, all the communication theories, all communication rhetoric, and process it through my biblical worldview.   yuck......I forgot what the assumptions are, the correct way to apply them to my rhetoric, and my biblical worldview is unable to be communicated thus far in writing or verbally. I am just complaining but it is making me feel better.  I just saw I can insert certain items here.  Here is a book i like a lot:

 It's great. You should read it.  Anyway, I am conflicted also about questions of life.  I have been since I was nine.  When I was around seven to nine years old I pondered such questions such as who am I? Do I deserve what I have?  What were the odds of me being born so lucky?  When I was fifteen and sixteen I was not your normal teenager; I was asking questions such as does God really exist? Am I normal? How do I know I am not being lied to? How can I know the truth?  When I was eighteen and nineteen I partied. The extent of my questions being How much alcohol can I consume before I pass out this night?  When I was twenty I asked why God let me go through an eating disorder and allow it to affect my life premanantly.  When I was twenty-one I asked God which hermeneautic was the correct one to interpret the Bible, and if there were different ways of knowing Him besides what I was always taught.   Why did I go here? Weird.

I am annoyed by my annoying housemate that does not do one particular thing I could specifically pinpoint that annoys me-not even to myself, which causes me to be even more annoyed, because I cannot explain why her very presence is excruciating.  There she goes, walking by. That annoys me.  She's in the kitchen AGAIN. That annoys me.  She's interupting my morning time-that annoys me.  She keeps walking around doing things she probably needs to do and that annoys me.  In fact she is doing things I do, every morning, which causes me to wonder: Am I annoying? The toaster just went off and she's going to come back in here and that is going to annoy me.  I use the toaster, I wonder if that annoys people.  I wonder if my scattered brain that causes me to frantically run around and my bored mind that causes me to always have to be doing something to entertain myself annoys people.  Epiphany: I could be annoyed by my annoying housemate because she so much like me!  I know one reason why she annoys me and I can totally point it out and have validated this is true by asking others if it annoys them.  She talks way too loud on the phone.  People say to me that it is annoying about her.  I know I do not have this problem because people are constantly telling me I should speak up on the phone and I am constantly having to repeat myself.  That annoys me, and I guess that annoys them too. But I doubt if it's as annoying as talking TOO LOUD on the phone!  Possibly, but I doubt it. Oh well, at least I have one annoying characteristic that is all to my own that annoys people and do not have to share it with the annoying housemate.  Hmmm, she has not yet come out of her room to get her crap out of the toaster-which I have been dreading for the past ten sentences.  That really annoys me.  I would have gotten my crap out of the toaster a long time ago. 

Not sure how this whole Vox thing works, and how I find friends and such other cool features, but I definitely feel like a loner here right now.  I am pretty much taking a week off school-not by choice but because I have two profs in all and one of them for four of my five classes who left for a seminar or something boring like that.  So that leaves me one prof left on Tuesday and Thursdays and Tuesday's classes were cancelled for prayer day so that leaves me with one class this whole week, and many papers from my absent prof to do for him while he's away. So I've just been chilling in my house, ti the weekend comes and I can go home and see my family, friends, and this guy I think is pretty cool and fun.  School is on my mind more and more though as Sr orals approach and I have not started that or my twenty six page paper yet. One of my housemates is really annoying me right now.  I got in a fight with my bf tonight, and I don't like that cuz I dont know if he's still pretty perturbed.  One thing's for sure, I am really really perturbed about my housemate! Gosh! Go to bed already! Oh good she at least shut her door so I dont have to hear her wierd coughing and moving of boxes...???  I am so so tired and I want to wake up early tomorrow so you would think I would have the sense to go to sleep but no, I do not.  I have to meet with my mentor tomorrow, go to a pretty boring Bible study, and then i get to see my dad who will be buying me dinner! yay! This is long and pointless, but you don't care because you're not reading it anyway, therefore since it is just for me, I am satisfied and am now going to bed.  Goodnight. 

I'm tired, think I'll go to bed.  just giving this a test run.  I also need to go to the bathroom; that's two good reasons to stop now.  I also have an eight o clock class tomorrow, that's three good reasons.  i just had two cups of black coffee, that's one good reason to stay.  I have nothing I need to be awake for (class doesn't count-it's just class!) so, I can be tired tomorrow if I want.  hmm, someone's in the bathroom, thats two good reasons for me to stay on here.  ok, gtg.  I just convinced myself to leave and go to bed.  see? this is proving to be a success already!